The Truth is .....

The truth is….I want me back

Getting thinner?

What’s for dinner!!!

Cause you gave me all your love

And it turned to rain and fog

I will rise and go,said the ocean

Feathers kissing the ground not making a sound

I curl up and sleep,autumn roars

‘Trees trial their skirts at the river edge’-John poetry class

Walkers linger and chat

I just want it to stop

Too generous with chocolate

How do I say it

You know that I pray it

How do I tell you

I breathe and I smell you

My breasts swell around you

As I dress,I want you

But I do not want to haunt you

The piano is singing

The love of a good man

Has he got time for you?

Does he come and find you?

Stars turning into lights directing

Like an airport runway

I want to feel strong

Eat right,travel

And do it on my own

Go across the pond

And feel forever young

I want to dream a song

Sit on an amethyst throne

I need to belong

I want to get away from the voices

Get a little sun,meet someone

I want to be well enough to have a baby

I want to be kissed a hundred times daily

I want to see purple in the sky

I don’t want the rain,I don’t want to sigh

I want to sing like an owl flies

When I sleep I don’t rest

I am a lone bird looking for a nest

I am in hell,it’s a test

I can hardly breathe

I am being pressed

Every sunset

I hold out my hand

I have this image of us in the sand

Every sunrise

I can feel the warmth on my eyes

You whisper words and my heart just flies

 I want to be the girl that sings

Spreads her wings

I want to be the girl that slims

And actually wins

Instead,I am paying for my sins

Looking up at sequins

Dreaming of fountains and mountains

I imagine being a heroine

Carrying a suitcase of emotion

Thoughts on today

Still dreaming and feeling dead

I am alive,I am not dead

Still praying and staying tough

Please take me out of these cuffs

Ask yourself

Is it love or is it stuff?

Is it just attraction and looking buff?

Is he enough?